February 1, 2020 I was terrified, but that's okay because I DID IT ANYWAY.
So much has changed for me. 2020 has been my mature year. It has taught me a lot about self-control, self-love, self-care and self-assurance. I have been forced to control my mouth, my actions, my mind and my mood. I learned that it was okay to take a break; from entertaining the wrong things with the wrong people. I learned to be selfish; with my mind, and my time. I thought I left behind everything only to discover that I gained so much more. Rediscovering my own power and happiness has been life-changing for me.
On Christmas day, I was riding in the car with my mom and for the first time, I shared that 2019 Christmas had been the worst ever in my entire life. I was MI-SE-RA-BLE! Thank God for deliverance. Fast forward to 2020, this year has not been perfect, but I have a peace that surpasses all understanding. I have an unspeakable joy; not from anything or anyone, but from deep within.
I strive to live a more simplistic life. I only focus on things that really and truly means something to my well-being. My peace, the health of my mind and heart means more to me than anything else in this world. I matter. My smile matters. Feeling refreshed and renewed matters. Hugging my loved ones matter. Telling my boys I love them daily, multiple times a day matters. Giving to others matter. Talking to my mommy daily matters. Time with my God matters. Not doing too much where I don't feel like I'm falling apart matters. I only want to enjoy the things that makes me feel good inside. The things that make me feel alive are the only things I seek.
I want to encourage you...God is the only reason I made it this far. As cliché as it sounds...TRUST THE PROCESS. Wait on God. He will give you better than what you have prayed for. He knows every desire of your heart. Every single one of them. And He will give it to you. I always say, I am a living witness. God is so good. He is so faithful and he gives hope to the hopeless. His strength is made perfect in your weakness, so you don't even have to be strong if you lean on Him. Don't let life make you bitter. People are just that...human. Even when they hurt you, pray for them. Forgive them. It's working out for your good. And know God will put you back together right in front of the people that hurt you.
The vision I have had for my life is manifesting. I have let go of the old me and have become a better version of myself. 2021 I will become the best version of myself yet. I won't be perfect and I'll still make mistakes...that's okay. I will allow myself the opportunity to start over however many times I need to. I am focused on the good and the good will only get better. So here's to 2021...more happiness, more love, more laughter, more SLEEP, more traveling, less drama and less stress. I'm ready for all that God has in store for me!!
And before I go, I have to tell you that I have so much cooking up for "A Journey with Tia". The book-club will be back to our regular scheduled program in February and I have a few other surprises that I will announce at the top of the year. I took a social media hiatus for the past few months (much needed) and I am so glad I did. I have really been able to spend a lot more time with God and work on some new business ventures. Please leave a comment or shoot me an email to let me know how things are going for you.
Thank you so much for your continued support. Read the blog and share the blog (please and thank you). I'm just trying to reach as many women as possible.
Last thing and I promise I'm going to let you go...LOL...say this affirmation daily ("I want to be a woman who trusts that God has a plan, even when I don't understand."), because it's not what you see, but it's what you don't see...God is always working it out behind the scenes. Don't allow fear of the unknown to hold you hostage or to keep you in bondage. No matter how scared you are...DO IT ANYWAY!
I love you like I love ice-cream:-)
Until next time...
peace, love and blessings,